Life Lately

I feel as if I've grown so much in the last few months, ever since I'd dared myself to take risks even to the point of doing things I would have never even considered before. I've met a few unforgettable people along the way and in a lot of ways I think that I've met different sides of me. The last few months have been some of the best of my life despite suffering a great loss. 

Our trip to La Union last weekend wasn't what I had expected it to be. Yes, I knew I'd have fun like I always do when I'm surrounded by friends. But it ended up being more than that. When I think about it, it's actually kinda cheesy (or maybe it just seems that way because I'm not that emotional of a person--most of the time). 

Late last year I decided to resign from my job and spend a few months focusing on myself and doing things I hadn't had the chance to do while I was buried in work. I had no concrete plans; I just knew I needed to do something different with my life. In a way, I dared myself to be as worry-free as I could. I had a few months before it was time to panic about not having a new job and a stable income. (I rambled on about this and my feelings in this entry.)

And so I started looking for cheap flights and planning trips. A month after my Malaysia trip and a month after submitting my resignation letter, I came back to Hong Kong. I started having a serious case of wanderlust, which made me book flights to Thailand, Vietnam, and Cambodia.

I still have so many stories to tell and so many memories I'm always gonna cherish. The more I travel the more I get to know myself. Compared to other people, I can't say that I'm very adventurous. If you had told me just a few months ago that I would eventually have the guts to solo travel for more than ten days and to do things that scare the hell out of me, say dive off from a 20-foot cliff (which is seriously a big deal for me because I'm terrified of heights--technically, I'm terrified of falling and dying but you get the point), I would have not believed you.

So it's funny how things turn out. When I jumped off that cliff two days ago, it dawned on me that I have so many more chances to surprise myself and find out what I'm capable of. That realization makes me proud of myself. I know I'll still get scared sometimes and I'll probably try to back out like I did while standing at the edge of that cliff. Some people, especially those who are fearless, might never understand the way people like me feel in situations like that one. But in a way and if only for a moment, I, too, did feel fearless once I decided to just jump and let go.

The places I've been to have inspired me to go after the things I want. These last 4-5 months have made me look forward to getting to know myself even better. As I've said before, I don't know where I'll be a few months or years from now, but I hope it'll be somewhere great. Let this road I'm facing lead me to an exciting and unforgettable journey. I know for sure that this is just the beginning.